Without Witness

At 3pm the sun raised the heat like a fire
I Though, as a child, that heat turned the people crazy
I saw from behind the fence men getting into figths
yelling and treathening each other
and everytime I thought it was sad, mad,
so real to be a dream
the suns heat..

But inside that tall fence,
I saw him scratching my mother with a fork
through the kitchen glass
this pain in my head will die with me
I stop feeling, I stop believing
I cant bear the sadness of becoming a witness
even if, there are days when I think Im going to make it

that sunny days of my life
keep burning like the bottom of hell
inside this heart I could be happy to rip off me

One day without witness
I crossed his door speaking with a strange voice
a voice who wasnt mine, strong and breaked,
feeling like living in a dream
I wanted him to listen, to know how wrong he was
but he slammed my arm with the buckle
cruel, sadistic, evil.
he slammed my spirit with pictures of memories
living memories that never go away


he was the sun, he was the heat
I was the witness
he was the sum of all the rage in the world.

Later

Later, she used to say all the time
she the mother of rejection
that woman in the very bussy eyes
yes,
she the one killer of the promises
got me lost in her ocean of lying truth
in her unfilled desire for control
that lady, is the song nobody sang to me
is an answer I had couldnt take from her
without lying.

she IS the lady
the ultimate lady that cries and lie
she is a living emotion inside of me
a void emotion, so were her words
a reminder emotion of who Im not
that priceless lady

Later,
Is what they take me for
may pick this life anytime
anytime but today
anytime but now
anytime in the infinite end of a black hole

So he said, later, when said any
He was gone, I had a door in front of me
a box of noises coming from his car
from the sound of his italian shoes
he loved most than ever do to me

Later,
the door I had to close whenever they left
but he even never own any eyes
eyes I could longed to chat with
he was the end of the magic
he was the end for the dreamings
he was the murderer of the pink ocean
and the velvet skies

He killed the unicorns with a belt
He destroyed the fantasy land
and forbiden all to talk about it...

He was a door.
man in the words saying
Im not there.

while she was a purse
the perfect lady that would say
You are not there,
because you do all wrong.

Hidden playground

Strange, misterious criture,
was my mistake your presence in this world?
was it, instead, the best of my spells?

What is it that captivate your thougths so deeply
that keep having your voice held in silence
staring something I never see
What do you see, my angel?

Why you dont like to tell people the secrets of your heart?
why I cant figure out where is your playground?
I can only love you this much..

If you play with your hands
and your world seems warm enough for you
quiet and misterious,
keep playing my baby, lets stay together,
lets be close to enjoy the silence,
I will look at you and know must be nice there
nice as you are

I will wait, close to you, where I am..
I will wait one millions lifes for you,
hughing without words,

I will share,
understanding with the heart
not with the thoughts
because your world is hidden and
maybe Im affraid to let you go
because is scary the unknown

Because is more scary not having you around.

Spins

Outside my shell,
the world is not scary
it has temptations and atractions
it has entries to go in
doors to leave whenever you get bored,
the world is exciting when you know how to join in
when you have your strategy and play the game easy way

I still believe in the worlds excitement
only I have lost the faith to make this my goal
the more betrayal, the more dirt you find is not fun
thats why I locked up my heart and reasoning long time ago
whenever played my last try and loose the chance to feel any truth
I have wasted tons of time trying to reach that peoples souls
to embrace their humanity
dont feel like trying again

I dont believe they have human eyes anymore
In their minds fair play is another slogan
is all about stairs,
you shape the step when the target is something else
is about wins and loses
is about climbing the rigth people
until get the top of the crowd

this shallow world made of fools dreamings
I dont need
feel like got to quit
this is how I am,
all or nothing
painless
deep truth or forget about it