the call

So you call finally

Its been months and years
desperately seeking a way out
knowing after all you wouldnt forget about me
and you did

You did, I simply wasnt ready to understand
but the call is so alike you
screw you, nothing else to say
Im so over you, over this,
nothing matters anymore

thougth I was about to get crazy mad
such a rage, earthquake 9 grade
every road inside me went broke
nobody survived
Im empty

Jesus, How could I made you see?
I was become so useful thing whenever you wanted to
If everybody turned against you
I was there for you, against them, against my own conscious
Loosing myself, crashing against the world
and the wounds were up to me,
never allowing you to look at them,
wounds were for free, me a gift
Only,keeping that memory of your smile
enough to the bones, knowing you were happy
If you were lost, i was the bridge
it was nothing you could walk all over me
behind my distorted eyes, I was looking at you from a dream
eyes closed, sleepy reasoning
so alike to love

screw you! and everything
Have said enough lies to myself
You are not the innocent criture you told them so
frozen, selfish heart taker
cant you see life is a both ways path?
someday you must give something

Now you call, seeking for understanding
screw you!
seeking for someone to keep cheering up at you
why dont you call your momma instead?

Dont fool yourself, Im not mad anymore
Im so over you,
Im just amaze with all this nonsense show of you
Your account is finally closed my friend
and Im about to flew
disappear, erase from your records
helpless task is survive understanding you
filling up your atention desire

There is nothing left to take away from me.

sharp

edged is the path leading to you
when I come to you I bleed
when you come to me I make you bleed
and I like it
I hate you
you hate me
but we must end this bloody compromise with blood

You are an stranger, so stranger
Im the stranger for you
In the table kichen we sat
but we dont look at each other faces
we are grieved, bitter
we hear but we dont listen
I do speak but whatever it takes so you leave sooner

You do speak, outside from our reality
You do speak, outside from US

Your perform is every day quite perfect
You force yourself to like me
I force myself to forget sometimes I want you dead
a bit more than I would like to see me dead myself

Im a liar, you are twice
Im a liar because my words dont fit your reality
and you are too selfish to look into mine


You are a dream killer
You are the edged side of my life

accidental

I been listening those darky songs again
six hours felt like nothing
I was thinking the other day
you told things you dont sorry for
I only wanted someone to share
to share the dirt like we share the stupid smileys

I know the picture of my days is unknown for you
thats why Im this lonely
when Im nothing but another stupid drama queen
you hate, having loose if you ever had
your tree quarters of patience
I see Im this lonely

And the music bouncing taste so sweet
sad to say is the only bound left with life
and perhaps, is void and stupid like me
Because I havent drop the golden chain
no matter the half of my life im giving, this sentence
I wish I could drop it, berry it under the ocean
it seems too late to make it back, undone

Im dead already, and you will lay with a corp
and the chain will tigth you somehow
you will never have me.